wow! i havent blogged in a very very VERY long time. feelin kinda guilty that i didnt. and also so deprived of letting things out.
so frustrated at so many things....its all coming it all too fast, all too many and all at the same time...
it happens not only once, twice or even occasionally..but every freaking day....its never ending...
what would life be if everything was so simple, we wouldnt have obstacles to face...but gosh, cant it at least be a little simpler!
im a very different person than most, sometimes i see things in a different way. so when people do things in a way where its just so frustrating, it really kills me...some people they dont have a choice that these things happen to them.. BUT SOME DO! and they still decide to let those things happen. they want it to god damn happen...i really dont like the way alot of people do things that are so beyond...
and some...some dont realize the kind of person they are turning into... i am getting so impatient with alot of things, alot of people. im only human, you cant expect so much out of me. what i have put up with, what i have helped with, what i have done and literally almost everything, I HAVE DONE MORE THAN ANYONE SHOULD. so give me a break.... i will lose all sense of sanity... then again, im such a pushover, i might still just sit here and get ran over....
no doubt i am a bitch, i am annoying i am a hypocrite and i am two faced. so are you, but i just happen to be a better person. its my habit to bitch, but not about crap, about something real, not made up. at the end of it, i still try to see the good in every bad. i annoy sometimes, but who isnt? i still end up being the one to care at the end of the day, the person that brings you back to the real world and the person that tells you the truth. i am a hypocrite because i may say i dislike something or i dont do something, unconsciously, we all do it anyway.. i'm may be a hypocrite and i realize that, but knowing how other people behave, i find myself to have such a mellow mellow mellow negative side. i am two faced at times because im just ignorant as it is...i couldnt care less anymore. if im okay with you, im okay with you, if im not, then fuck off, i dont care anymore. you can talk to me and whatever, but inside, im being as ignorant as possible...
i probably dont make much sense...but i take it as im self reflecting...
so much more shit going on its endless...oh well...till next time strangers
toodle luu
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