everything can be much simpler, all you have to do is make the right decisions

wow! i havent blogged in a very very VERY long time. feelin kinda guilty that i didnt. and also so deprived of letting things out.

so frustrated at so many things....its all coming it all too fast, all too many and all at the same time...

it happens not only once, twice or even occasionally..but every freaking day....its never ending...

what would life be if everything was so simple, we wouldnt have obstacles to face...but gosh, cant it at least be a little simpler!

im a very different person than most, sometimes i see things in a different way. so when people do things in a way where its just so frustrating, it really kills me...some people they dont have a choice that these things happen to them.. BUT SOME DO! and they still decide to let those things happen. they want it to god damn happen...i really dont like the way alot of people do things that are so beyond...

and some...some dont realize the kind of person they are turning into... i am getting so impatient with alot of things, alot of people. im only human, you cant expect so much out of me. what i have put up with, what i have helped with, what i have done and literally almost everything, I HAVE DONE MORE THAN ANYONE SHOULD. so give me a break.... i will lose all sense of sanity... then again, im such a pushover, i might still just sit here and get ran over....

no doubt i am a bitch, i am annoying i am a hypocrite and i am two faced. so are you, but i just happen to be a better person. its my habit to bitch, but not about crap, about something real, not made up. at the end of it, i still try to see the good in every bad. i annoy sometimes, but who isnt? i still end up being the one to care at the end of the day, the person that brings you back to the real world and the person that tells you the truth. i am a hypocrite because i may say i dislike something or i dont do something, unconsciously, we all do it anyway.. i'm may be a hypocrite and i realize that, but knowing how other people behave, i find myself to have such a mellow mellow mellow negative side. i am two faced at times because im just ignorant as it is...i couldnt care less anymore. if im okay with you, im okay with you, if im not, then fuck off, i dont care anymore. you can talk to me and whatever, but inside, im being as ignorant as possible...

i probably dont make much sense...but i take it as im self reflecting...

so much more shit going on its endless...oh well...till next time strangers

toodle luu
<3

a person can only handle so much...

bonjour strangers,

so today i was defeated by technology...made a really nice slides for my presentation and i let it slip right off my hands...beating myself up for it. just sucks real bad...

aside from that...im just really annoyed at certain people. you already know im frustrated, i dont need you to give me more shit to feel fucked about. you constantly mock me for my work saying that im showing off to you. dude, if i do my work better than you or a few others, then thats because i did it right, and good. i dont have to prove myself to be the best. thats just a waste of my time. so if i do a really bad job, then you'll be satisfied? and you ask me to answer your personal questions...i ask you to figure it out yourself...and you ask me why. why? oh i duno..maybe cos its your problem and not mine?

im just so fucking bitter today. if i had one more person annoy me again at this moment im going to use a huge slab of lard and slap each and everyone of you.

i just hope my birthday celebrations will cheer me up and make me put all this behind.

i am a bitch.

signing off, au revoir

new findings

bonjour!

so ive discovered something new, well new to me at least. little have i known that thise little awesome van "The Humble Chef" ever existed, until a few very good friends of mine introduced it to me.

its a little van that comes by every night i think, to pusat bandaraya, sets up their tables and chairs and serve great meals. they're amazingly cheap and tasty! people park their cars by the roadside and wait, for however long it takes. i think my favourite dish there would be the Lamb Pita(without vege of course).

i think these very simple yet interesting findings very heart warming.

a sparkle in my smile

aloha strangers,

so, my birthday is coming up. i have alot of wants and needs, but well, they dont come cheap ;)so its best i dont ask for anything(much) or else people are gona go broke. tee hee.

instead of going out, for dinner and all, ive decided to go with a really relaxed barbeque and drinking session for my birthday celebration this year. i just want to be at peace ON my actual birthday. (no one said anything apart from days that arent)

my pre birthday celebration will be a karaoke session with my classmates, my birthday celebration-the bbq and my post birthday celebration will be with my beloved seniors(its a triple birthday-me and the double A's)

aaahhh, its gona be a great birthday this year, and a great way to sign off year 2010.

so far ive gotten a card, recipe book, handbag(omg thank you so much for it!), a bbq pitt(though its a cheap one, i cherish it), and an 1touch4!!! omgggg, im loving my life now.

this would be the first time in my life that my birthday is on an exam day, hate it, but theres a first for everything right? boy am i exicted! :D

au revoir mes amis <3

things always happen for a reason

i had a great weekend, and it there wasnt any clubbing involved, or YOU. i HAD fun with you before but that was before. until you changed for the worst. everyone changes, but when you are told specifically, that you have changed for the worst, what you do is you turn your self around and at least try to change for the better.

you did the complete opposite and got even worse. so much to the extend that im realising shit, finding out shit and knowing more shit about you. i now can have a good time, even without you around. and a better time, in fact.

you almost ruined my week because you were selfish. as much as i dislike you now, im not that immature and self absorbed and horrid. thank god i had much better people and company around to make it all better.

im not always right, im not always wrong. but you're just creating problem after problem, on your own.

i might be two faced at times, i might be one hell of a bitch, i might be a hypocrite, i might be an attention whore. but girl, you were all of that and more even before i met you. plus, you're all that and much worse than me. i admit my faults, and i try to change for it. stop being such a pain.

its so obvious that you will talk to people about me, probably just as much, or more than i do about you. but then again, most of us talk, and only because we know the truth about you. you can tell your friends all the shit you want, they dont know me personally, so technically, you're brainwashing people with your suck ups with bullshit.

im being an absolute mean bitch here, but ive gone through too many shit in life to give a fuck now. ive done so much shit for you and yet, you still turn out to be a typical piece of work. and i know im a bitch, i own up to my shit. its probably a good thing sometimes, that im a bitch, or else, i'd still be so naive and be used by you.

im sick and tired of all this crap. stop pretending, it aint funny.

the joy in the little things

this week, has been really great. the people, the events, the things that have happened. priceless memories :)<

had a great start to my weeked, went to a fashion show. PJCAD students fashion show. it was "Avant Garde" themed and was titled "The Day of God's Wrath". wow, i must say, it was really awesome. the designs were so unique and creative. loved it alot :)

then the next day, had a bbq dinner. of course, being the only culinary student amongst all the law students, i did the preparation, of course, with lotsa help from the lawyer ladies :) bbq-ed all night long while everyone was drunk. kinda fun that for once, i was the one that remembered everything, and they didnt. hahaha. what a great night. met ALOT of fun, cool and great people. it was one hell of a party. kudos to the organizers. :D

today, was chillax day, it being a sunday :)despite being so tired from the bbq, i woke up real early, and went out for dim sum with one of the birthday boy, his gf, the main man of the party and his friend. then went back out again to teman one of my best mates to ou laughed our assess off as usual and random stuff and back to his home where his mum made the awesome-est dinner!! and baked mud-slides, specially for me :D aawww <3

what a great weekend!!these are the simplest most memorable things we need in life.great company is of course, the main ingredient :)

strike 2

wow the things that has been going on.

spending so much time out, and staying out till late, really takes a toll on you. its like putting your biological clock in a damn blender.

and all the bitching and backstabbing. wow, can you imagine. im a hypocrite, no doubt and i bitch non stop. but dare say you're not, and you're a much much bigger hypocrite. and dare you say you're not two faced? there you go, you were just two faced when you said you weren't.

but im naturally a judgemental person. i cant get along with girls that much, so logically, i hang out with guys more. the amount of girlfriends i have are only a handful. the way friendships work in a guys world is so much simpler, genuine and laid back. with girls, its just drama, bitching, squealing, backstabbing, judgement, insecurity and well, just a million more. but come on, who doesnt love a little drama once in a while?

but if you're gona create so much freaking drama around till no one likes you, well, serves you right. like you said, if everyone starts to dislike you, there IS a problem with YOU.

and whats up with drivers nowadays. im not the safest driver but there are just some who are so freaking bombastic its beyond ridiculous. like literally wanting to ram into people, or just plain fuckin stupid driving. yes, the condition of the roads nowadays, isnt pretty. its a brutal world out there.

guess we all just gotta toughen up, learn from the shits that happen around us and grow up. stop fretting and do something about it. better times are ahead.

signing off strangers,

;)